By Yani, from Brooklyn
I would like to start out by
saying I LOVE NATURAL HAIR! I think
everyone who wears natural hair is beautiful.
I secretly would love to wear my natural coils but lack the courage to
do so.
I think it is important to state how my natural journey started. At the age of 29 I noticed my hair shedding a
lot, I mean hair everywhere. It was a
transitional time for me so I attributed it to stress. But as the time passed
the shedding continued. That prompted me
to stop relaxing my hair.
That was 6
years ago and I haven’t had a relaxer since.
Though I wasn’t relaxing my hair, I was a self-proclaimed weave queen. I
mean I was and am an addict! I love the horse’s hair. For me, a fresh weave was equivalent to a fat
kid and a big piece of cake!
I have worn
a weave so long it looks more natural to me than my natural hair. I always had a big fear of someone I work
with seeing me without my wig, I am so afraid I even wear my wig to the
gym!
Now that I’m living in Brooklyn I
am constantly surrounded by black women in their natural form. It makes me feel a bit stupid walking around
with this wig on my head. Though I am extremely
conflicted I still don’t have the courage to wear my natural hair in
public. I think this stems from having
short hair as a child and always yearning to have lighter skin and long
hair. Don’t get me wrong I have a full
head of hair. Many people who have seen my natural hair think I’m insane to
wear a wig.
I wish I had the confidence
and enough love for myself to conquer this curse. I guess the first step is admitting my
problem. Hopefully the next step will be
over coming my fears.
Have any of you felt this way about your hair? If so, how have you overcome it or have you?
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